- sunglasses are more important than people think....
- October 19th, 2012
and here's why:
i have a growth on my right (and possibly my left) eye called a pterygium.
it's basically scar tissue on the conjunctiva (white part) that crawls over and blinds you if it isn't removed.
i'm posting this partially to warn everyone who reads this, and mostly to relieve some tension.
i'm petrified to say the least.
it seems like my worst fear is coming true.
i'm so very afraid of going blind, and now there's this growth that could possibly blind me if i don't have this surgery, not to mention that there's a fair chance that it can grow back worse after i have it removed.
it's my own stupid fault for not wearing sunglasses like i should, and spending all that time in the sun after keeping my house so dark.
everyone's telling me to calm down and that everything will be ok, and i'm trying.
i really am, but it's my worst fucking fear we're talking about here.
i'm afraid of spiders and jelly fish, but they don't make the blood drain from my face and make me start sweating at the thought.
blindness does this to me.
right now, i feel like throwing up, then dropping to my knees and sobbing uncontrollably.
i want to scream how it isn't fair that this is happening to me instead of happening to someone that has done something terrible to somebody, and then beg with every fiber of my being for this to just go away like it's never happened.
it may seem overdramatic and stupid of me to feel like this, but imagine if it was YOUR worst fear slowly coming to life....
anyways, protect your eyes.
wear sunglasses, try to avoid rubbing your eyes, and try to keep things from flying into them